In Chinese, there’s a saying “三十而立” (san shi er li), which originates from Confucius. It means that by the age of thirty, a person should be able to stand on their own, have a clear sense of self, and possess the ability to prove their worth.
So when I turned thirty, I had a strange feeling. On one hand, according to society’s expectations, I had reached an age where I should have achieved something. On the other hand, I was very aware that I still had many uncertainties about various things.
When someone asked me, “Now that you’re thirty, do you feel anything special?”
I thought to myself, “This day isn’t any different from any other. After it passes, I’m still just as uncertain.”
However, there’s one thing I’m certain about: I don’t want to go back to my early twenties.
Why is that? I’ll talk about it in this episode of the podcast.
在中文里有“三十而立”的这样一个说法（来源于孔子），意思是说一个人到了三十岁之后要能够自立，有自己的核心，有能力证明自己。
因此，当我三十岁的时候，我有一种很奇怪的感觉，一方面根据外界的期待，我已经到了应该有一定成就的年龄；另一方面我又很清楚，自己对于很多事情还是有很多疑惑。
当有人问我：三十岁了，你有什么特殊的感觉吗？
我心想：三十岁这一天和其他的日子没有什么不同，过了之后，我还是一样的疑惑。
但是我一件事情我很清楚：我并不想回到二十岁出头的时候。
为什么呢？这期播客里我来聊一聊。
